If the stores didn't close by 7 pm, it wouldn't make any sense for me to get off work early. Work is the only place I meet people at the moment. Maybe I should hang around the hotel reception more often. This is a tiny Bavarian town. Young people move away after high school. There isn't anything going on. And those who stay around get married to their high school sweethearts and have this entirely different lifestyle going on, which I still don't understand.
Once in a while I do feel attracted to someone, it actually happens really fast. But it ends before it starts and I get over it even faster. I have to. I am happy with my job, my health, the new place I got and my future landlord's cat. I get along with almost anybody. I just don't know if I can live like this for several years. Without any real friends, just co-workers and hotel staff. With only limited shopping and feasting possibilities. How to live exactly. I spend all my money on traveling, insurance, rent and bad restaurants.
To be honest, I'm not even sure if I am capable of sharing a place with someone other than my family. And I promised not to settle again. That makes it twice as hard to open up to someone. I'm already the worst at expressing emotions. Obviously I can't just date a co-worker for fun and hope for the best.
Right now all I can do is make sure that I survive on my own. We will see how everything else turns out. Mickey will be in China for a month and Nolan will take two weeks off in July. I'm gonna rise to the occasion and make the best of the worst situation.
Once in a while I do feel attracted to someone, it actually happens really fast. But it ends before it starts and I get over it even faster. I have to. I am happy with my job, my health, the new place I got and my future landlord's cat. I get along with almost anybody. I just don't know if I can live like this for several years. Without any real friends, just co-workers and hotel staff. With only limited shopping and feasting possibilities. How to live exactly. I spend all my money on traveling, insurance, rent and bad restaurants.
To be honest, I'm not even sure if I am capable of sharing a place with someone other than my family. And I promised not to settle again. That makes it twice as hard to open up to someone. I'm already the worst at expressing emotions. Obviously I can't just date a co-worker for fun and hope for the best.
Right now all I can do is make sure that I survive on my own. We will see how everything else turns out. Mickey will be in China for a month and Nolan will take two weeks off in July. I'm gonna rise to the occasion and make the best of the worst situation.
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