Over you

People always mistake this for a love song. It's not about lovers or anything like that. Originally it was recorded by country superstar Miranda Lambert. Her husband Blake Shelton wrote it about his older brother who tragically died in a car accident at a very young age. If you have any siblings, you'll exactly understand what this message is about, I tear up everytime while watching Miranda's version. Gotta say, one of my favorite songs of 2012, maybe one of the best country songs of all time. Check out Cassadee Pope's beautiful rendition too. 

Where there is hate, there is love or something

At least you still care enough to hate. Some (negative) feelings may never fully disappear. Time and distance will keep your mind off of them until they don't matter much any more. Maybe I'm not ready to seriously meet someone, which is why I keep sabotaging everything on purpose. I'm definitely not the overconfident / arrogant person I used to be anymore. Do I come across friendlier and more approachble now? I'm not sure, it may take more than just not being arrogant. Do I feel lost and confused? Yes, and it's not a good feeling. Will I get over it? Of course, I'm a survivor type, now tell me what to do. xD

Not angry enough

I knew something was off, I just couldn't put my finger on it. Something didn't feel right and I should've listened to that gut feeling. I was bored and needed something to keep my mind occupied. I had gotten used to getting things my way. Then it suddenly became very clear that some things were just not for me. Yes, it seemed a little harsh and embarassing at first. And yes, I felt kinda lost too. Had nothing to lose anymore. Didn't know who I was anymore. Is it okay to admit that? It is okay... for five minutes. Because I hate being vulnerable and I'm at the top of my game when I'm angry. When all the other distracting feelings are gone, anger is the one thing that keeps me alive and going.

After the holidays

When family and friends are gone, all that remains is the emptiness.