Help me, I'm a cat

If the stores didn't close by 7 pm, it wouldn't make any sense for me to get off work early. Work is the only place I meet people at the moment. Maybe I should hang around the hotel reception more often. This is a tiny Bavarian town. Young people move away after high school. There isn't anything going on. And those who stay around get married to their high school sweethearts and have this entirely different lifestyle going on, which I still don't understand.

Once in a while I do feel attracted to someone, it actually happens really fast. But it ends before it starts and I get over it even faster. I have to. I am happy with my job, my health, the new place I got and my future landlord's cat. I get along with almost anybody. I just don't know if I can live like this for several years. Without any real friends, just co-workers and hotel staff. With only limited shopping and feasting possibilities. How to live exactly. I spend all my money on traveling, insurance, rent and bad restaurants.

To be honest, I'm not even sure if I am capable of sharing a place with someone other than my family. And I promised not to settle again. That makes it twice as hard to open up to someone. I'm already the worst at expressing emotions. Obviously I can't just date a co-worker for fun and hope for the best.

Right now all I can do is make sure that I survive on my own. We will see how everything else turns out. Mickey will be in China for a month and Nolan will take two weeks off in July. I'm gonna rise to the occasion and make the best of the worst situation.

Monday morning

Because my life revolves around work and nothing else, I kinda have been looking forward to Monday morning all weekend. (Sounds sad doesn't it.)

When Percy picked me up for work at 7.20, I realized there was more to it than simple boredom. He already stood there waving at me, smoking his cigarette, as I stepped out of the hotel. Strands of my hair were still wet from the shower, I wasn't expecting him for another 10 minutes. I was surprised how cute he looked and even more surprised at how glad I was to see him.

Nolan and a couple of other people don't seem to think much of Percy. But there is something about him that magically pulls me towards him. It's the way he says my name, it's the touch of his arm when we sit next to each other. I can't help it. I noticed it last Friday at the town fair, I noticed it again in the car. I know he probably isn't interested or has a gf. Only enjoys the attention at most.

If it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be. I already figured this much. It's just that Monday, the 1st of June, turned out to be one of the best days ever since I got here.