Okay here's the deal. A lot of time passed since my last blog entry. We won the World Cup! Oh my God, it was an overwhelming tournament and a very painful farewell to Klose and Lahm, two of my all-time favorite players... (I'm gonna be grateful and sad forever.) I also achieved a few individual goals of my own. That I'm very grateful for as well.
Now that being said, everything seems to be headed towards the right direction except for some personal matters. One of them include Ian, the on-and-off friend that I can't quite forget. Well, he never really moved on either. Of course there was a reason or two why things didn't work out in the first place, and time won't change anything. He tried to reach out a couple of times, while I remained tough and all. It wasn't easy. Everybody is still hanging out together, there is no one-on-one time for Ian and I though. My friends think it was already difficult to get rid of him the first time, even mutual friends don't like the idea of working things out between the two of us. It's almost like he used to be toxic or something, or maybe I am the toxic one, or we're each other's nemesis who knows. You think your relationship with someone is complicated? Then you haven't met Ian. Nobody knows that I actually did have feelings for him, not even himself. It's better to keep it that way, he wouldn't like me that much if he knew me very well. I'm gonna get over it at some point and then most likely be embarassed about it. ;) Feels good to finally get this off my chest. :D
