Sleepless as always

There is nothing that makes me happier than living a stressful life, having plenty of things to do that take my mind off of other things. I still can't sleep at night, but I don't feel stressed out any more. I don't even have the time to think, which is great. I don't want to think about anything, because as soon as I start thinking it's going to destroy me. Maybe there is a part that has already been destroyed. It wasn't that hard to keep it all together, it just happened to not fall apart somehow. People often think I'm arrogant - which I am - but the arrogance conceals a vulnerabilty that is so much harder to live with. So I'd rather embrace the arrogance than be vulnerable all the time. This blog entry turned out to be way more dramatic than I wanted it to be. I hate that. (But I'm kinda relieved as well.)