I could get used to this

I don't know if I will ever be able to love again.

I have found this great guy who cares about me, who is serious about me, who wants to make me happy. We have this amazing connection, I am incredibly attracted to him and I admire a lot of things about him. Sounds like a dream and I could totally get used to being this happy.

I guess I am always preparing myself for the worst. I have made many mistakes in the past. All I know is how to heal fast after getting hurt. I have learned to get up and start over. Now imagine being in love for real and having to heal after that. Sounds like a living nightmare. There is no recovering from that.

I want to let my guard down for this guy, I just don't know if I can.